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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 1, page 7, July 21, 1849

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Identifier: DX08810752

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 1, page 7, July 21, 1849

Description: Describes two advertisements he placed, one for drawing pupils and one for news of William Barth. Comments on the difference between his friend George Bolton's life in Oxfordshire and his present work at a Pork Shop in Jersey City and the hardships of working in general.


one advertisement devoted to getting news of William Barth, three for pupils to instruct in drawing. A walk up to Joe [Greatbatch] and George [Bolton]’s Pork Store. Being Saturday night they were busy. / Verily, it was queer to sit in the back of the shop and see them carving, sawing, weighing and money-taking – to see this and call to mind quiet Oxfordshire, (in connection with George.) Here is he, some three-thousand and odd miles away, trafficking in little Jersey City, as if at it all his life. Had we speculated on this, in our ride to Stratford on Avon what should we have thought? / Ah me! Ah me! “The briars of this working day world!” Sometimes a quick, fierce impatience, anon a very heart-sickness to think of this mind and body wearying strife for bread and cheese. This “Gin-horse life” as poor [Robert] Burn’s phrases it! Here am I, in my 3 four and twentieth year, still hoping, planning, scheming, to get astride the alligator — the world, as of old. And if done, what then. Have I the fresh heart to enjoy, as then? “No more — no more, oh Never more for me” — I’m sad at heart, to the very core — “I am aweary, weary, — I would that I were dead.” To lie still and be at rest. I can understand [William] Motherwells feelings when he wrote his last. Or dear [Percy Bysshe] Shelleys, in his “Ode in dejection near Naples.” The World has not wronged me — I bear it no malice — but oh God for some one to love me — There I can write no further. Oh Mary [Bilton], that I was a loving boy as of old.

Rights: NoC-US


Dates: 1849-07-21

Type(s): Diary

Maker/Creator: Gunn, Thomas Butler, 1826-1903

Subjects: Personals


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