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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 5, page 87, November 7, 1852

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Identifier: DX01215889

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 5, page 87, November 7, 1852

Description: Comments on a dream he had about Mary Bilton.

Transcription:

7. Sunday. Domestic chores all the morning. Dined at Sweeney’s with [Alfred] Waud & [Augustus] Fay; then to Office. Waud at the portrait, I reading &c. Supped together, then I called at [Frank] Royal’s & stayed till 9 or so. To Swinton & Fay’s room [290 Broadway], with Waud awhile, then to bed, to sleep — aye, and to dream. Towards the morning, when, according to Ovid & Alain Rene le Sage’s Asmodeus dreams may presage some shadows of truth, did I dream that which, alas, never, never will come true.

She [Mary Bilton] was here, with me, reunited by simple incongruous circumstance! But oh! what a meeting it was — Oh me! That it should be but a dream! Such warm, loving, passionate words, each glad heart-trusting faith & tenderness, such talk of old time, long separation, such clinging to each other, heart to heart, such tears, such blessed trust and hope and happiness for the future — such a vista of Heaven’s light pouring in — !

All a Mirage — all! But I almost wish I could never have waked from that dream! Foolishly said, & foolishly written down, all this fond dream. But I love her Still, and I love Without Hope.

She will never be my Wife — I may never see her again in the World.

Rights: NoC-US

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Dates: 1852-11-07

Type(s): Diary
Page

Maker/Creator: Gunn, Thomas Butler, 1826-1903

Subjects: Dreams
Diaries
Women

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