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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 5, page 221, June 17, 1853

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Identifier: DX01287389

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 5, page 221, June 17, 1853

Description: Describes hearing Lotty Kidder talk about her childhood.

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and then lit a cigar. Lotty [Kidder] gave me one & lit one herself. [Moses] Morse came in, smoked too; and then Mrs K [Rebecca Kidder] who didn’t. Lotty sang some songs, and anon [John] Whytal came in, and the rest leaving, at intervals, we three were left together sitting on sofa. She after some of her wonted declarations of recklessness as to herself, ran off into an anti-maternal comment on her past; saying, (truly enough for that part) she never had a mother to tell her “that is wrong” &c. Her father [William Kidder] played mother in part. When she was a child that woman would leave her for a fortnight, leading a more inane, egotistic and perchance guilty life than she does now. She never loved child or husband. Neither does Lotty, so Selfishness and Self Will are hereditary. This Lotty sees not. A thousand things did she say, always-ringing the changes on Self, eternal Self, demanding everything, willing to give nothing. Some of her words glanced at Whytal, and he stung by them spoke up warmly. I said not much, till insensibly launched into converse, got earnest, and spoke to her of her duties as mother and wife.

So it went on, till waxing late, I left, telling her I know of the fogyism and boredom of telling such truths to her. She had my hand in hers. Whytal had turned his back to get his hat to accompany me. She put my hand to her lips, and

Rights: NoC-US

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Dates: 1853-06-17

Type(s): Diary
Page

Maker/Creator: Gunn, Thomas Butler, 1826-1903

Subjects: Diaries
Women
Cigars
Smoking
Marriage

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