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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 136, August 15-18, 1855

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Identifier: DX03942771

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 136, August 15-18, 1855

Description: Comments on his loneliness for his friends and family in England.


accompanied with vomiting. The hot weather punishes me, and thinking of the recently-experienced home love, I feel very lonely. Ah! kindly George Clarke, and ah manly [William] Boutcher, how true, right thinking, and right acting are ye contrasted with those I know now — Alf [Waud] draws nearer to me than others. I wish he were not engaged in this business. Perchance I have no friend on this continent, save [William] Barth at distant Mackinac.

But at the bottom of my troubled soul, I ever see the calm, kind, earnest, face of the dear English country girl [Hannah Bennett], so far away. It bids me love and wait, and pray to God. May he grant that I may not go through life unloved. The old, old drama of my first love [Mary Bilton] has passed away, (only at long intervals is there a sad echo of "It might have been," in the very core of my heart, — and then I'd wish to lie down and die;) but I am well content with my present hopes, and tremulously alive to the fear of making shipwreck this time.) [Charles] Welden has been up, and [A.F.] Banks, and Alf Waud. He is ill-content with his brother [William Waud] and Sol Eytinge. Banks don’t shew well in prosperity. He swills lager beer, loafs about, and vents vociferous braggadochio, and little spites.

16. Thursday. [Jesse] Haney up, and Alf Waud. Up-town in the evening to the boarding house of the former, (the Wauds accompanying,) with intent to visit [James] Parton, (Horace Greeley's biographer,) but he was not within, and the evening was wasted.

17. Friday. Indoors all day, ill content and unhappyish.

18. Saturday. Mr Alcock called. To the Picayune Office, where were [William] Levison & Haney. Dined in company

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Dates: 1855-08-15

Type(s): Diary

Maker/Creator: Gunn, Thomas Butler, 1826-1903

Subjects: Diaries


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