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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 8, page 115, December 7-8, 1856

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Identifier: DX03718759

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 8, page 115, December 7-8, 1856

Description: Contrasts Mary Bilton with Hannah Bennett.

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practical comment by saying to a child running about the floor “Come here you pretty little G_d-d____d to h__l darling! come here!”

8. Monday. Two letters, one from Hannah [Bennett], the other from [William] Barth. I am only worthy of Hannah on one head – I thoroughly appreciate and value her. Apart from that, she is so kind, so good, and so wise, that I think of her with self abasement and humility — even with a kind of terror at my own worthiness, and the fear that I may never [word crossed out] have her for my wife, or if I do, that some weakness and shortcoming may disenchant her and deprive me of her priceless love.

I swear I would not have her different than she is by one jot! that I have never met girl with her unaffected sense, modesty and loving kindness. Mary Bilton had more beauty, but she was a coquette by nature, ere her plunge into chapel going. Hannah’s soul in is as pure as a woman’s can be — how pure that is no man can ever know! Now God help me to scour mine a lt little! to be honest, and true, and brave, in heart [word crossed out] as well as in action! I would to God I could wipe out all my past love for Mary Bilton — it is past now. I am shamed that I cannot offer an unscarred love to this noble girl. Yet I think I should never have prized her and known her worth as I do — as I do — but from having

Rights: NoC-US

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Dates: 1856-12-07

Type(s): Diary
Page

Maker/Creator: Gunn, Thomas Butler, 1826-1903

Subjects: Courtship
Children
Diaries
Women

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