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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 13, page 18, June 10, 1860

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Identifier: DX02677210

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 13, page 18, June 10, 1860

Description: Regarding his past feelings for Mary Bilton.

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ever vulgar, though occasionally boisterous. She [Mary Bilton] had no great education, like the rest of the family, but her natural quickness of parts enabled her to do more than pass muster. She was generous and approbative, a coquette by nature, as how could she avoid being, with her beauty and lack of culture? I don’t think she ever loved me, or felt more than was provoked by my extreme passion and pertinacious pursuit of her. That touched her into a sort of reciprocation. The religion didn’t better her nature, which became moulded by it. She could never get over my heterodoxy about hell-fire, and that parted us. I think of her not often and without pain; though sometimes with a twinge of regret for the irrevocable past and innocent days of youth gone by for ever — but that’s all. I know Hannah [Bennett] is the nobler and deeper nature, that she loves me more than Mary Bilton ever did, that she must be, by this time, quite an old maid — for I don’t think she has got married — I never can suppose that somehow, I would give a good deal to talk with some one who knows the family and obtain news of her. That’ll come someday, though probably I shall never see her again in this world. After all it’s a sad business,

Rights: NoC-US

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Dates: 1860-06-10

Type(s): Diary
Page

Maker/Creator: Gunn, Thomas Butler, 1826-1903

Subjects: Diaries
Women
Courtship
Religion

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