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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 227, April 12, 1856

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Identifier: DX04010537

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 227, April 12, 1856

Description: Includes the letter Alfred Waud wrote to Mrs. Jewell, explaining how he eloped with her daughter, Mary.


no longer a burden to that dear parent, and wishing a home of her own. This young girl [Mary Brainard] marries a ball room acquaintance [Albert Brainard], not for love, but as liking none better, and only withheld from refusing him at the last moment by an acute sense of shame. It required no deep penetration, nor did it take long to discover her error. Her paradise faded like morning mist. Where she had pictured delicacy and refined feeling she found obtuseness and vulgarity. In place of that love her woman's nature yearned for, brutal lust only. Jealous misunderstanding and unappreciation instead of affectionate confidence. The rosy fruit who gathered that seemed so fair upon the tree was filled with ashes. Becoming acquainted with one who had the power to understand her, whom she felt alas ! too late, she could love; inspiring in his bosom a passion at once self denying, pure and ardent, what wonder if despair entered in possession? Strong as was her sense of duty, she felt it impossible to make the husband the law so tightly bound to her, happy, even at the sacrifice of all hope but that of a speedy termination to her misery. I know my feelings were not of any consideration, yet if I were uncertain before, I should have been a hopeless vagabond now, dwelling on the thought of that fair girl, sacrificed at the altar of a miserable duty, without one cheering star ray

Rights: NoC-US


Dates: 1856-04-12

Type(s): Diary

Maker/Creator: Waud, Alfred R. (Alfred Rudolph), 1828-1891

Subjects: Diaries


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