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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 225, April 12, 1856

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Identifier: DX04008746

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 225, April 12, 1856

Description: Includes the letter Alfred Waud wrote to Mrs. Jewell, explaining how he eloped with her daughter, Mary.

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her [Mary Brainard] of a man [Albert Brainard] she regarded only with disgust and abhorrence, and whom she shrank from meeting, getting paler and of a more touching melancholy each day. I endeavoured to prevail on her to pluck up courage and run off; but for her mother [Celina Jewell] and sisters [Celina and Cornelia Jewell] she would not. Again the day of his arrival came. On that evening, for the first time since Mary left Dobson's [177 Canal St.] I called, and had been there some five minutes when he entered. Jealous anger shone with dull light from his eyes; he was not civil, perhaps it could hardly be expected. I could have killed him then, I was armed, I was mad — may I never feel so terrible a craving for human life again, may no man’s life hang on such an effort as I was forced to make. I departed. Mary accompanied me to the door. One kiss — I thought the last, and it closed. Half-fainting I supported myself by the rails, and then, sped away as one who runs for life. How I spent the next four days God knows, I cannot recollect, only a dim vision of sleepless nights in the open air, of working frantically at fires, of rum, of listening to the dark river that seemed to call me to rest forever in its black solemn bosom, and gain the relief I sought at once. My existence was in an abyss of deep wretchedness, and in vain my friends tried to rouse me. And how was it ith Mary? I once more passed her window. And there prop-

Rights: NoC-US

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Dates: 1856-04-12

Type(s): Diary
Page

Maker/Creator: Waud, Alfred R. (Alfred Rudolph), 1828-1891

Subjects: Diaries
Women

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