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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 224, April 12, 1856

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Identifier: DX04007851

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 224, April 12, 1856

Description: Includes the letter Alfred Waud wrote to Mrs. Jewell, explaining how he eloped with her daughter, Mary.

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thought never entered my brain, I scorned to take advantage of opportunity or liking. I remained because I felt it meanness to seek forgetfulness in a future of excitement and change, which she [Mary Brainard], the victim of the same passion could not attain, but in place there of brood over the disappointment and live an embittered existence in the society of a man [Albert Brainard] she detested. And now occurred an event which added to our misery, and made me a powerless devil. The ship delayed from day to day, at length brought the man’s footsteps to the house for one week — a week of agony of heart and brain. With fever consuming my life I wandered without rest, haggard and worn, till the vessel in God's mercy again sailed. I watched it like a maniac, whilst it fired its parting salute and steamed out to sea. Then she was mine again for seven long weeks. Mine in all good thoughts and honesty of purpose. We did not think then of ever breaking the barrier that separated us*, nor did we attempt to conceal our meetings. They took place openly. But weeks wore on quickly and we more sorrowful each day. Mary spoke of, and I, of leaving all, and seeking happiness in other relations. She refused. I knew it would be useless to continue the struggle between love and duty, and despairing utterly of finding relief determined to join Col. Kinney's expedition, resolving before I left the city to rid

* But they Did it.

Rights: NoC-US

Place:

Dates: 1856-04-12

Type(s): Diary
Page

Maker/Creator: Waud, Alfred R. (Alfred Rudolph), 1828-1891

Subjects: Diaries
Women
Courtship

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