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Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 172, November 18-19, 1855

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Identifier: DX03969452

Title: Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries: Volume 7, page 172, November 18-19, 1855

Description: Describes a disagreement with James Parton about the book on comic poetry they are collaborating on.

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go carefully over each page; hunt in down town libraries, find an edition, — he [James Parton] buys it, [word crossed out] takes scissors in hand, and tacitly ignores my labour. Chiefly I have gone through all the Punch volumes, used up all my own available numbers, hunted out many more at book-stalls, and made copies in writing (at the Mercantile,) of all articles not to be got otherwise. He says he goes over volumes, from the time of his return up town in the afternoon, till sunset, and get’s half blind. And also that in April his mother’s maintainance devolves upon him. The talk made me gloomyish, as I was unwilling to break off anything so fairly commenced; and we came to no conclusion upon it. He had before told me that no money would be forthcoming till two years subsequent to its publication. Returned down the chilly Broadway, and to bed by 9 1/2.

19. Monday. A little writing only. Ill in body, unspeakably wretched and half mad in mind. Oh God, be pitiful and end this! Oh mother [Naomi Butler Gunn], to lay my head on your breast and sob my half broken heart out! / I have been up to the Mercantile all the afternoon. Shall I ever forget with what a throbbing brain and aching, aching eyes, I stood turning over page after page, getting indifferent answers to my applications for more, how the familiar English names in the books made my soul yearn to be in my own land, where at least, some one loves me? How I walked through crowded, cold, sunny Broadway, and the gaily-dressed women there promenading, — and ascended to my lonely room, to sit looking into the fire and sometimes to burst into paroxsysms of tears?

Rights: NoC-US

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Dates: 1855-11-18

Type(s): Diary
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Maker/Creator: Gunn, Thomas Butler, 1826-1903

Subjects: Diaries

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